At last he broke through this awe, with
his slow fighting resolution, and he began to give his answer.
"I don't say ever, Melanctha," he began, "it wouldn't have been more
right for me to stop Jane Harden in her talking and to come to you to
have you tell me what you were when I never knew you. I don't say it,
no never to you, that that would not have been the right way for me
to do, Melanctha. But I certainly am without any kind of doubting, I
certainly do know for sure, I had a good right to know about what you
were and your ways and your trying to use your understanding, every
kind of way you could to get your learning. I certainly did have a
right to know things like that about you, Melanctha. I don't say it
ever, Melanctha, and I say it very often, I don't say ever I shouldn't
have stopped Jane Harden in her talking and come to you and asked you
yourself to tell me all about it, but I guess I wanted to keep myself
from how much it would hurt me more, to have you yourself say it to
me. Perhaps it was I wanted to keep you from having it hurt you so
much more, having you to have to tell it to me. I don't know, I don't
say it was to help you from being hurt most, or to help me. Perhaps I
was a coward to let Jane Harden tell me 'stead of coming straight
to you, to have you tell me, but I certainly am sure, Melanctha, I
certainly had a right to know such things about you.
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